My little Stinky , sitting down for 5 Min before he was off again , I swear I never said that I can't wait till he can crawl LOL
He seems to be always on the move and bumped his head on the floor countless times , I always want to cry as well then .
Really need to get a Healthvisitor appiontment , so I can get him weight and messured . Next month I need to get a whole new wardrobe for him YAY Shopping


Pumpkin @ 8 Weeks 1 Day

So I had my U/S and Pumpkin is going great , strong HB and in the right Place , going back in 8 days . Still really nervous that Bean stoped growing but I still feel really sick , so that is a good sign I guess .

Still no U/S

I feel sick and now dizzy and have some wierd , not really cramping more like a poking on my right side . Stupid me googled it and aparently that can be a sign of ectopic pregnancy . Great now I'm even more worried

This morning when I got woken up by my Baby Boy and went into his room , he was sitting up in his bed and when he seen me he started smiling and claping his hands . It was soooo cute and my heart just melted , I am insanly in love with my Baby .

Loads of women from my old DDG ( Due Date Group ) are planning their Babys Birthdays , huge Partys with their Familys and friends . And then there is me , who would love to plan a party for her little Boy but there will be no Family and only very recent Friends . At least Gina and Alex are comming the day after , so I think I will have the big Party the day they come and a Mama, Daddy & Baby Party on his Birthday .

6 Weeks & 1 day

Had a Midwife appointment today , now I'm just waiting for a phone call to see when I gonna have my Scan . I am terrified that there will be no Baby , no HB and the test were wrong .
I don't want to lose my Baby and I know that if I do there is nothing to stop it .
Maybe that's why I don't really think about it or make plans , trying not to bond until I know it's ok , I don't want to get hurt , I don't want to feel the emtyness again .

Tomorrow my Baby Boy is 10 month old , I can't believe how fast time went by , I want to be there for him , be a good Mother . Maybe the scan can put my mind to rest

Thinking

I read in my BG today that one of the Women I talk to for a loooong time now is really down because her SIL is pregnant and that just after she had a M/C . There is so much I want to say to make her feel better but I'm not sure that it how it would come across .

I've been there and felt the pain but now I'm here with my Baby Boy and would she think yeah she can talk , she got her Baby .

A while ago in my other BG everybody was pregnant and I thought I would be the only one left , it was horrible to feel that the one thing I wanted most was not gonna happen .

I didn't want to be insensitiv when I posted my sticks , I was just so happy and had to share and tell someone , I know they are happy for me but there is the little voice in them that says why her , why not me . I know because I had that little voice for years

Feeling Pucky

I feel soooo sick , never felt this bad with Ben , mmh does that mean it's a Girl ?
Somebody in my Buddy group asked me how I think Ben will react to his new sibling and I have no Idea . I hope that he will be ok but there will be changes for him , he's gonna share Mama & Daddy , sometimes I feel kinda guilty that I didn't take contraception and waited a bit before having another one . BUT and that's a bit but this pregnancy was a total surprise and not planned , I thought that I didn't O , we didn't try and just had fun .

Do I worry about what it's gonna be like with 2 Babys , sure I do and I know it will be hard but I will love every minute of it

9 Month

Well it's been a while and Ben is a month older now and we are in Italy :)

He can crawl now , nothing and no one ( meaning the Cats ) are safe now . First he was only doing it when nobody was looking and today he got up on his hands and knees and just crawled . I am on proud Mama

He got so big and is a very clever boy , he claps and loooves his books , it seems like he is doing soemthing new everyday .

And there is something else that has happend ..... I'm pregnant again :) which is a huge surprise but a very happy one .

8 Month old

My little Stinky is now 8 month old , in 4 month he will be a year ! Time went by crazy fast , the weeks seem to fly by and now it's high time that we start packing for our move .

Thing is I really don't like packing , no mather how much we put in boxes there is alway a tons of stuff left . And now there is all of Ben's stuff we too , but most will be left out so he has toys and all the other day to day stuff he needs .

On Sylvester (New Years Night ) we put him to bed as usual but when the fireworks started he woke up and loooooved the Fireworks , took us a hour to get him back to bed .

I don't really have any New Years resolutions this time , I know I need to lose weight but even when I made that my resolution I never followed through .
So this year I want to be more tolerant and nicer person , no bitching or complaining ... or a lot less than before ;)

If things bother me do something about them instead of getting p***** off , be nicer to people .
So far so good , even when my Neighbours seem to want to try out how far they can push me before I forget my New Me .