Ben 22 Month & Abbie 5 Month

Summer is nearly here , it's getting warmer and the Rain has stopped . Which means new Wardrobe for 2 Kids , SHOPPING YAY .

If anybody would have told me 3 Years ago I would have 2 Kids , I probably would be in tears and screaming at them to stop taunting me .
Infertility is something that I can't forget , the pain and heartbreak sticks to me like glue . There are still moments when I can't believe they are my Children and then I hold them close and kiss them ( Ben is not a big Kisser but Abbie loves giving sloppy Baby kisses )
Don't know why I got so lucky but I did and I'm grateful .... which doesn't mean that sometimes they don't drive me crazy ;)

Ben is talking a lot now and we have to be very careful what we say around him , today he turned around to hid Daddy and said " Ok already " after he got told to stop playing with Daddy's tools . Every Cat is Tessie or Kätzchen , Donkeys , Horses and Giraffes are Aih and car journeys have a running comentary of Car Car Truck Car , sometimes Copter ( helicopter )

Abbie is starting to get solids now , Banana is ok but Rice Cerial is Devils food and has to be spit out at once . Still not rolling over but she can get to where she wants on her back doing a worm motion ( I think it would be a lot easier on her tummy but what does Mama know , right )

I changed my Diet and started doing excersice , this year will be the year I lose the extra weight for the last time . It feels like a now or never , I don't want to leave Italy looking like I came here . I want to look and feel better , not like last summer so fat and swollen and sweating so badly . Even though I didn't put on much weight during the Pregnancy the weight that was already there made it harder on me . And I want to wear cute clothes !

Abbie @ 14 Weeks and Ben @ 20 Month , my life as a Mama of 2 under 2

Well so far so good , Abbie is having one Nightfeed and most nights she is sleeping through and has her feed between 5 - 6 am , after we go to sleep all snuggeled up . Love it !

Ben is talking up a storm , we have to be so careful what we say in front of him , he is repeating EVERYTHING . Still loves his Books and Trains , Cars and tormenting the Cats .
He is such a good Eater and will try anything .

DH and I are getting so snippy , he says it's tieredness , I think if we tried harder we would stop bitting each others heads off . I will do my best not to take everything he says like critisism and just tune out when he starts his whinging . One would think it's my Toddler is the problem but no it's my Husband maybe the second childhood or it's this place .

We need to move again and I'm so feed up with it all , no Idea when or where we are moving , maybe he is getting promoted and that would mean moving to another Country or he could be getting made redundant and then we would be moving into our House .
AND the bummer is there is nothing I can do but wait and see what happens , I HATE WAITING !!!!

Only Days To Go

Yup 4 more days , got told the time I need to be there and what I need to take and what I have to do or don't do before .
Got a Friend looking after Ben for the morning and a Cleaner coming in for the first few weeks to help out .
Now I just need to do some washing , pack my bag , clean the house and well wait till Tuesday .

Ben was sick on Sunday , high Fever and really floopy , no wet Nappys and didn't want to eat or drink . We took him to the Hospital and there his Temperature was 104 , they said they need Urin and Blood . Woo I thought how do they get Urin from a Baby not with a Catherter surly well they do .
My poor baby was held down and they got their Urin to test and when they pulled the tube out ... he peed all over them .
I cried , Ben cried and Steve was looking like he was close to start as well , then they had to put an IV in to get Blood and give him some Fluid at with piont I could hold him . We sat snuggeled up together there for a few hours , then finally the Fevermeds they gave him kicked in and the fever went down enough for us to go home with him .
That was one of the scariest days of my life

Time flys

Ok I really need to update more on here but since we moved and still haven't got home internet there is a fight for the dongle going on in this House .

Ben is doing great , a little eating maschine and I mean that , there is no way to eat in front of him without sharing the food .

He looooves his Thomas the Train playset and knows moct names and brings the right Trains to u ( Bragging I know but hey this is my blog after all ;)
His newest Word is Teddy , he said it today for the first time , my big Boy .

Abbie is growing like crazy and only 2 more weeks before she comes out .... unless these Contrations pick up and then she will be here a lot earlier

7 more weeks to go

It's been a while , there is just always to something I do instead of updating the Blog .

Ben : Got tooth # 7 & 8 now , is walking for weeks , feeding himself with a spoon and having Tantrums LOL
Dear me I thought they would not come for a while but they are here ,if he doesn#t get his way he screams and throws himself on the floor or bangs his head on the floor .

He is talking in Baby gibberish all day long with a few words u can understand .

His favourite Toys at the moment are Lego Duplo , Thomas the Tank engine and still and hopefully always Books , Books and Books .

His Favourite Food Yoghurt , Fruit ( Apple , Melon , Nectarin ) and Veg & Potatoes

He loves his Kitty Cats but is a bit rough with them , Bisquit is rather old and just let's him do pretty much whatever he wants ... pulling her tail , sticking fingers in her Ears or trying to ride on her .

My little Boy is growing up soo quickly , I love watching him play and explore .
Sometimes I still can't believe I'm his Mama , it seems like a Dream and that is when I pull him close to get Kisses and Hugs . I am very lucky to have him and soon there will be Abbie here too

My Bump is BIG and I mean BIG , last weeks growth scan put her at around 4.5 LBS and that was at 31 weeks .
Steve did the Hands test (put his arms around me to see if his fingers still touch ) and they did , just LOL

Getting the Nursery set up next week and washing all the Clothes I got , cutting the circles out for her walls and FX all the stuff I ordert will arrive too

Scan today

and it's a GIRL
I still can't believe it , I always wanted a Boy and a Girl but thought I would have trouble conciving again . I just did'nt want to go through the treatments again , have my heartbroken if it didn't work and there was no way I could face another MC .

And then I got pregnant , don't know when and it stuck , still took the Pills but Baby was hanging in there till I started helping my Body take care of her .
She is growing and now I can feel her kick and turn in my tummy , my little Abbie Elisabeth

When I hold Ben in my arms and feel Abbie move I now I am the luckiest Women alive , after 9 years of heartbreaks , my dreams came true .

Yes 9 years , 4 years of NTNP and then 5 years of activly trying , so many HPT and OPKs , so many U/S and bloodtest
But to get where I am now , I would do it all over again !

Scan Tomorrow

Tomorrow I will find out if the Gender Guess at the 13 week U/S was right or not , I think he was right and I'm having a Girl this time .
This Pregnancy is just so diffrent , I was sick as a dog , craving sweets and my Bump is much higher than with Ben .

They must have made a packed to strech my Stomach as much as they can , Ben the bottom and Baby Girl the top LOL
Oh well as long as Baby is healthy , I'm happy

Ben had Chicken , Broccoli & Cauliflower for Lunch today and he loved it , he ate like a Big Boy :)