10 Weeks 1 Day

Dear God I feel fat !!!!!!I looked at my Pregnancy Pictures from Stinky and I look now like I did with 13 weeks , my belly looks bloated and huge . My Face looks bloatchy and my Nails are breaking , where oh where is the glow I had last time , the thick Hair , the hard Nails ... all I get now is spots

Don't they say if it's a Girl the Mom looks ahm not that good ?

My little Stinky , sitting down for 5 Min before he was off again , I swear I never said that I can't wait till he can crawl LOL
He seems to be always on the move and bumped his head on the floor countless times , I always want to cry as well then .
Really need to get a Healthvisitor appiontment , so I can get him weight and messured . Next month I need to get a whole new wardrobe for him YAY Shopping


Pumpkin @ 8 Weeks 1 Day

So I had my U/S and Pumpkin is going great , strong HB and in the right Place , going back in 8 days . Still really nervous that Bean stoped growing but I still feel really sick , so that is a good sign I guess .

Still no U/S

I feel sick and now dizzy and have some wierd , not really cramping more like a poking on my right side . Stupid me googled it and aparently that can be a sign of ectopic pregnancy . Great now I'm even more worried

This morning when I got woken up by my Baby Boy and went into his room , he was sitting up in his bed and when he seen me he started smiling and claping his hands . It was soooo cute and my heart just melted , I am insanly in love with my Baby .

Loads of women from my old DDG ( Due Date Group ) are planning their Babys Birthdays , huge Partys with their Familys and friends . And then there is me , who would love to plan a party for her little Boy but there will be no Family and only very recent Friends . At least Gina and Alex are comming the day after , so I think I will have the big Party the day they come and a Mama, Daddy & Baby Party on his Birthday .

6 Weeks & 1 day

Had a Midwife appointment today , now I'm just waiting for a phone call to see when I gonna have my Scan . I am terrified that there will be no Baby , no HB and the test were wrong .
I don't want to lose my Baby and I know that if I do there is nothing to stop it .
Maybe that's why I don't really think about it or make plans , trying not to bond until I know it's ok , I don't want to get hurt , I don't want to feel the emtyness again .

Tomorrow my Baby Boy is 10 month old , I can't believe how fast time went by , I want to be there for him , be a good Mother . Maybe the scan can put my mind to rest