Only Days To Go

Yup 4 more days , got told the time I need to be there and what I need to take and what I have to do or don't do before .
Got a Friend looking after Ben for the morning and a Cleaner coming in for the first few weeks to help out .
Now I just need to do some washing , pack my bag , clean the house and well wait till Tuesday .

Ben was sick on Sunday , high Fever and really floopy , no wet Nappys and didn't want to eat or drink . We took him to the Hospital and there his Temperature was 104 , they said they need Urin and Blood . Woo I thought how do they get Urin from a Baby not with a Catherter surly well they do .
My poor baby was held down and they got their Urin to test and when they pulled the tube out ... he peed all over them .
I cried , Ben cried and Steve was looking like he was close to start as well , then they had to put an IV in to get Blood and give him some Fluid at with piont I could hold him . We sat snuggeled up together there for a few hours , then finally the Fevermeds they gave him kicked in and the fever went down enough for us to go home with him .
That was one of the scariest days of my life

Time flys

Ok I really need to update more on here but since we moved and still haven't got home internet there is a fight for the dongle going on in this House .

Ben is doing great , a little eating maschine and I mean that , there is no way to eat in front of him without sharing the food .

He looooves his Thomas the Train playset and knows moct names and brings the right Trains to u ( Bragging I know but hey this is my blog after all ;)
His newest Word is Teddy , he said it today for the first time , my big Boy .

Abbie is growing like crazy and only 2 more weeks before she comes out .... unless these Contrations pick up and then she will be here a lot earlier

7 more weeks to go

It's been a while , there is just always to something I do instead of updating the Blog .

Ben : Got tooth # 7 & 8 now , is walking for weeks , feeding himself with a spoon and having Tantrums LOL
Dear me I thought they would not come for a while but they are here ,if he doesn#t get his way he screams and throws himself on the floor or bangs his head on the floor .

He is talking in Baby gibberish all day long with a few words u can understand .

His favourite Toys at the moment are Lego Duplo , Thomas the Tank engine and still and hopefully always Books , Books and Books .

His Favourite Food Yoghurt , Fruit ( Apple , Melon , Nectarin ) and Veg & Potatoes

He loves his Kitty Cats but is a bit rough with them , Bisquit is rather old and just let's him do pretty much whatever he wants ... pulling her tail , sticking fingers in her Ears or trying to ride on her .

My little Boy is growing up soo quickly , I love watching him play and explore .
Sometimes I still can't believe I'm his Mama , it seems like a Dream and that is when I pull him close to get Kisses and Hugs . I am very lucky to have him and soon there will be Abbie here too

My Bump is BIG and I mean BIG , last weeks growth scan put her at around 4.5 LBS and that was at 31 weeks .
Steve did the Hands test (put his arms around me to see if his fingers still touch ) and they did , just LOL

Getting the Nursery set up next week and washing all the Clothes I got , cutting the circles out for her walls and FX all the stuff I ordert will arrive too

Scan today

and it's a GIRL
I still can't believe it , I always wanted a Boy and a Girl but thought I would have trouble conciving again . I just did'nt want to go through the treatments again , have my heartbroken if it didn't work and there was no way I could face another MC .

And then I got pregnant , don't know when and it stuck , still took the Pills but Baby was hanging in there till I started helping my Body take care of her .
She is growing and now I can feel her kick and turn in my tummy , my little Abbie Elisabeth

When I hold Ben in my arms and feel Abbie move I now I am the luckiest Women alive , after 9 years of heartbreaks , my dreams came true .

Yes 9 years , 4 years of NTNP and then 5 years of activly trying , so many HPT and OPKs , so many U/S and bloodtest
But to get where I am now , I would do it all over again !

Scan Tomorrow

Tomorrow I will find out if the Gender Guess at the 13 week U/S was right or not , I think he was right and I'm having a Girl this time .
This Pregnancy is just so diffrent , I was sick as a dog , craving sweets and my Bump is much higher than with Ben .

They must have made a packed to strech my Stomach as much as they can , Ben the bottom and Baby Girl the top LOL
Oh well as long as Baby is healthy , I'm happy

Ben had Chicken , Broccoli & Cauliflower for Lunch today and he loved it , he ate like a Big Boy :)

Shoping

I used to love shoping for Clothes , for Food , pretty much anything . BUT now that Pumpkin is growing bigger and my belly is too , I have a problem , I have no Idea where to get Clothes from .

The Internet is not much help , either the Clothes are ugly but mostly to TINY , is there a rule that only skinny people are allowed to get Pregnant ?
Well if there is I didn't get the memo

On a happy note my Baby Boy is going great , started giving him fingerfood for all his meals now and well it's going ok LOL
Not a big Fan of Fish or Potatoes (unless they are in wegde form) the first Mama made meal was thrown in the Bin
Went a lot better with Cheesy Pasta with Broccoli and Carrots

There is a Friend of mine (who I haven't met but who still is a friend ) who is pregnant but bleeding and thought that it was over . But the line went lighter and is turning darker again , I wish her a Miracle because she really deserves one .
SO if anybody is ever reading this plz wish her one too

Baby Boy is ONE Year old today !!!

I can't believe it , the last few days I was quite emotional , looking at old Picture when he was just born and now he is a year old .
No idea where this year went , it went by sooo fast , now he will be walking soon and maybe start talking ( right now it's Hiya , Mama & Daddy )
He had a great Birthday , eat his Cake and wore quite a lot of it too ;) and spend all day playing with his new toys .
Right take ur time growing up Stinky , Mama love u very very much !

10 Weeks 1 Day

Dear God I feel fat !!!!!!I looked at my Pregnancy Pictures from Stinky and I look now like I did with 13 weeks , my belly looks bloated and huge . My Face looks bloatchy and my Nails are breaking , where oh where is the glow I had last time , the thick Hair , the hard Nails ... all I get now is spots

Don't they say if it's a Girl the Mom looks ahm not that good ?

My little Stinky , sitting down for 5 Min before he was off again , I swear I never said that I can't wait till he can crawl LOL
He seems to be always on the move and bumped his head on the floor countless times , I always want to cry as well then .
Really need to get a Healthvisitor appiontment , so I can get him weight and messured . Next month I need to get a whole new wardrobe for him YAY Shopping


Pumpkin @ 8 Weeks 1 Day

So I had my U/S and Pumpkin is going great , strong HB and in the right Place , going back in 8 days . Still really nervous that Bean stoped growing but I still feel really sick , so that is a good sign I guess .

Still no U/S

I feel sick and now dizzy and have some wierd , not really cramping more like a poking on my right side . Stupid me googled it and aparently that can be a sign of ectopic pregnancy . Great now I'm even more worried

This morning when I got woken up by my Baby Boy and went into his room , he was sitting up in his bed and when he seen me he started smiling and claping his hands . It was soooo cute and my heart just melted , I am insanly in love with my Baby .

Loads of women from my old DDG ( Due Date Group ) are planning their Babys Birthdays , huge Partys with their Familys and friends . And then there is me , who would love to plan a party for her little Boy but there will be no Family and only very recent Friends . At least Gina and Alex are comming the day after , so I think I will have the big Party the day they come and a Mama, Daddy & Baby Party on his Birthday .

6 Weeks & 1 day

Had a Midwife appointment today , now I'm just waiting for a phone call to see when I gonna have my Scan . I am terrified that there will be no Baby , no HB and the test were wrong .
I don't want to lose my Baby and I know that if I do there is nothing to stop it .
Maybe that's why I don't really think about it or make plans , trying not to bond until I know it's ok , I don't want to get hurt , I don't want to feel the emtyness again .

Tomorrow my Baby Boy is 10 month old , I can't believe how fast time went by , I want to be there for him , be a good Mother . Maybe the scan can put my mind to rest

Thinking

I read in my BG today that one of the Women I talk to for a loooong time now is really down because her SIL is pregnant and that just after she had a M/C . There is so much I want to say to make her feel better but I'm not sure that it how it would come across .

I've been there and felt the pain but now I'm here with my Baby Boy and would she think yeah she can talk , she got her Baby .

A while ago in my other BG everybody was pregnant and I thought I would be the only one left , it was horrible to feel that the one thing I wanted most was not gonna happen .

I didn't want to be insensitiv when I posted my sticks , I was just so happy and had to share and tell someone , I know they are happy for me but there is the little voice in them that says why her , why not me . I know because I had that little voice for years

Feeling Pucky

I feel soooo sick , never felt this bad with Ben , mmh does that mean it's a Girl ?
Somebody in my Buddy group asked me how I think Ben will react to his new sibling and I have no Idea . I hope that he will be ok but there will be changes for him , he's gonna share Mama & Daddy , sometimes I feel kinda guilty that I didn't take contraception and waited a bit before having another one . BUT and that's a bit but this pregnancy was a total surprise and not planned , I thought that I didn't O , we didn't try and just had fun .

Do I worry about what it's gonna be like with 2 Babys , sure I do and I know it will be hard but I will love every minute of it

9 Month

Well it's been a while and Ben is a month older now and we are in Italy :)

He can crawl now , nothing and no one ( meaning the Cats ) are safe now . First he was only doing it when nobody was looking and today he got up on his hands and knees and just crawled . I am on proud Mama

He got so big and is a very clever boy , he claps and loooves his books , it seems like he is doing soemthing new everyday .

And there is something else that has happend ..... I'm pregnant again :) which is a huge surprise but a very happy one .

8 Month old

My little Stinky is now 8 month old , in 4 month he will be a year ! Time went by crazy fast , the weeks seem to fly by and now it's high time that we start packing for our move .

Thing is I really don't like packing , no mather how much we put in boxes there is alway a tons of stuff left . And now there is all of Ben's stuff we too , but most will be left out so he has toys and all the other day to day stuff he needs .

On Sylvester (New Years Night ) we put him to bed as usual but when the fireworks started he woke up and loooooved the Fireworks , took us a hour to get him back to bed .

I don't really have any New Years resolutions this time , I know I need to lose weight but even when I made that my resolution I never followed through .
So this year I want to be more tolerant and nicer person , no bitching or complaining ... or a lot less than before ;)

If things bother me do something about them instead of getting p***** off , be nicer to people .
So far so good , even when my Neighbours seem to want to try out how far they can push me before I forget my New Me .